life and death.

how do you define what in life actually means something? after all, life after life ends, is a totally urelated difference compared to death. yet, when alive we all think and say things that we don’t mean, do things that we have no outright interest in, and believe in things that are not real. when alive we see the creations of man as a more important factor than man itself. when alive we seek the more reasons to live based ok whatever we can achieve to obtain materials.

so why is that so? why do we always regret our actions after life as come to a point of standstill and when thee’s no other option but to wait for time to pass by?

this nag in my heart.

i don’t know how to put it. but it’s been a rather unhappy period for me. i know how much there are other troubles that are affecting the brain but it’s already overspilling and affecting the entire atmostphere already. everyday. there is a shade over which there is never actually a day that a good thing is out. you’re always saying that other people are always complaining, but have you thought about how you’re always complaining? you don’t joke anymore, you don’t talk to people nicely, you don’t even exhude the proper table manners, much less complain about other people not having it.

i am constantly being placed in the middle. stuck. and at crossfire, because i don’t know which side to take. yet, sitting on the fence doesn’t exactly get me anywhere either. sometimes, ♀ vs – just gets me all fuddled, other times it’s ♂ vs -. when can i have some peace of mind to know that i don’t have to think about all these unnecessary ridiculous childish comments and criticisms?!

sometimes, i really just want to tell ♂ to stop minding other people’s business. seriously, enough is enough. you don’t care about the things that are happening in your face, you keep bothering about other people’s for what?! not as if you are damn free or something. seriously. -_-

i got bored complaining in my own blog, i ended up reading other mediacorp artistes blogs. in some odd way, some lead very fanciful lives with fanciful buys. while some, have stagnant blogs that are updated with fanciful finds. then there’s some that have the usual musings and rambles of another human being.

 

the world. is. a. mess. so many catastrophes happening all within a week. why?! there are major earthquakes, bad haze, high rising floods. then there are flash forest fires, and of course, the ever happening, melting glaciers. i’m depressed the world is in a mess. and we’re the ones who messed it up. yet, now, we have no idea how to save it. is it because we’re all just way too selfish to help conserve and preserve the best that nature has to give? like me. wasting electricity blogging at night when i should be asleep, this leads to the burning of coal, leading to the decrease in the supply of coal, and the introduction of more emmissions of smelly gases into the atmosphere. which causes more dark clouds to gather, and more rains to happen. and also more dust to form, trapping more heat on earth, causing more glaciers to melt.

 

OH MY GOODNESS. I JUST MADE MYSELF FEEL TERRIBLY GUILTY. SLEEP.

money, that’s why.

what kind of host hosts a 21st birthday party for his son, and invites his own friends? and not get the number of people right and end up telling his guests not to go instead. seriously. that’s just whatthehell please.

 

anyway. it’s been a fruitful day.

 

indian accents and monotone voices tomorrow.

 

 

 

sleepy.

the start of the last.

that is what it is right. the very last lap. the last four units to go. and i’m done. therefore, i hope, the last lap, will be the best lap?

in the art of racing, a driver anticipates and causes whatever that happens next to take place. therefore, i got to anticipate the results of whatever that happens if i choose to do whatever else. the semester is going to be as short (if not shorter) as the last, so, shall just try to make the best of it. love it, live it, breathe it, embrace it, excel it. ya, like it is so simple. -_-

 

the past few days, despite the terrible throat and drippy nose, it has been pleasantly fun/interesting. one round of mj, lots of new food, and rather calm and peaceful moments. at this point in time, i just don’t want the holidays to end.

 

 

get well soon!

ready, set, go.

it is 2 days left to the end of my suddenly-so-short holidays, and, OH, THE HORROR! -_- i have this immense fear/feeling that i have played for a tad a bit the a lot that i may have ended up forgetting how to take notes. hahaha! oh well, “i got a feeling ~~” that everything will be alright. i just need to set the mind right, and hit the play button really hard so that i get the right show to play. and give it all for the very last semester. till even more horror begins.

the irony. =/

anyway, after a long long wait, finally caught the proposal, and yet, as always, am happy that sandra bullock became an actress. (: although it seems frightening to stand next to a … boy?! but nonetheless, it was a good show.

so here’s what i have for the next 21 weeks or so of lectures:

monday – 12pm psych; 3.30pm hrm
tuesday – 12pm law
thursday – 12pm msm

so if need be a date, all other days please. maybe not wednesdays. because i may be in study mode then. although considering how nice the timetable is, if i don’t answer the phones over the weekends, it’s probably because i’m on some long weekend. happily only. -_- as they say, all work and no play, make selene a moody nerd.

 

all the more so, i wish the sore throat would go away and for whatever that’s ailing me be gone. i am in a very uncomfortable position, as it is. boohoo. and am also very pissed with the fat piece of shit called brother that’s stealing all my internet connection doing whatever he’s doing. (really very not happy hor!)

 

either way, hopefully a good semester ahead, and no nightmares about failing papers. sleep beckons.