now now, child.

why is it that some types of people are simply generally obligated to others? or rather, why does a certain type of people feel obligated to a certain type of others?

it’s annoying when the feeling of saying no becomes this revolting guilt magnet that starts to form the moment the thoughts of it form. to such that extent that you have seemingly no choice but to say “yes, alright, i’ll see what i can do”. but come to think of it, do these people actually deserve it?

now, i honestly do not think so.

if only i had just said no. and then, what would have resulted? i may have simply be faced with a whole bunch of shit for, what, two weeks?, but then after that it’ll all be normal (or not) again. but then, now that i said i’d see what i can do, and literally shifted everything away, THIS IS THE KIND OF SHIT I GET. i seriously don’t owe anything to have to say oh yes, i’d definitely do it. but then now, i’m sick of it that i’m wondering why my life is constantly revolving around it, and yet, i’m supposed to be EXPECTED to be obligated; when i’m not obligated to anything or anyone or anytime.

SO WHY IS THIS ALWAYS ON ME!?

i don’t like it. i wish to be free of it. it’s so troublesome. for the brain and the emotions to have to face.

please, seriously. just seriously.

 

 

tsk.

~ by selly on June 4, 2009.