sore loser.

the problem with the sportsmen of sg:

 

Channel NewsAsia – Friday, September 11 SINGAPORE :

Singapore football captain Noh Alam Shah has slammed Singapore football, saying it is stagnant.

His remarks came ahead of his departure to Indonesia club Arema Malang where he has signed a one—year contract.

Alam Shah has been a household name, not only for his goal scoring but also his volatile temper.

Not new to controversy, the 29 year old said he has had enough of Singapore football, citing a lack of motivation due to poor attendances at S.League matches.

Several Singapore players are also contemplating a move to Indonesia clubs, which promise better salaries and capacity crowds.

Another grouse, Alam Shah thinks good players have been left out of the league because of the Football Association of Singapore’s insistence on them passing the beep or fitness test.

He feels he is also being singled out by referees for past encounters.

“The referee standards has also gone down a bit, maybe me and most of the referees got history. I think they treat me (based) on (what happened in) the past and not the present. That is wrong and that’s one of the reasons I am leaving,” said Alam Shah, who plays for the Singapore National Team.

Alam Shah will play his last match for club Tampines Rovers against Sengkang Punggol on Friday. — CNA /ls

i mean, come on. seriously?! whatever happened to the good hearted nature of sportsmanship.

 

TSK.

garner your resources, and

FIGHT!

yeah. got to fight the many many battles so that there will be victories. as well as defeats, which always happens right. some how, i think, defeats are always more common than victories. how sad. it’s probably why we must always learn to fall first before we learn to crawl. so why are there born genius assholes who can crawl without falling?!

 

i. am. in. much. missing. of. hyl. which is kind of funny. since when i’m away on trips and stuff, i don’t think about it so much. but when he’s the one who’s away, it feels oddly dissatisfying. not that because he’s having fun anyway. worst thing is that i still get to talk to him at night. imagine not being able to do that. haha. oh man, my phone bills will have a beautiful month! hahahahaha. come to think of it, maybe it’s not a bad idea he’s always away after all! so evil. sighs. i wonder why, being such a horrid girlfriend, he can still bother about me. how nice.

just another thought about a couple of messages yesterday is really kind of extremely funny. “we are free we come visit the dogs.” and then in succession, “wah, so many young mothers.” in reply, “huh. what has dogs got to do with young mothers.” then, “no links lah. i say we go see dogs. then after that i say got a lot of young mothers who have got babies already.” and in reply, “i thought you say the dogs very young got babies. haha!” oh man. was openly confused as to what he was trying to say please. we really have very weird conversations.

 

it’s very amusing when cats start chasing after your computer mouse. must be something that’s amusing them.

 

MAGGIE CHIN. cookies for you by the end of the week! (:

 

 

 

(:

with bleak and moral.

it’s just kind of that wonder that shopping online gives you this sense of minute satisfaction and dissonative regret, YET, shopping at brick and mortar shops from companies that started online, just gives you – this sense of minute satisfaction and dissonative regret. AND YET, i still do it. hahaha.

i have honestly no idea why i buy so many things all the time. constantly questioning, “do i really want another one?”; “do i really need this?”; “is this really going to be worth it?”. still, when the time comes, it’s always, “just buy first then see how.” really damn bad habit can!

had a nice lunch with s and j and pokpok today. and then had a good time walking around and shopping with j. it’s been a super long time since i last got that chance to hang out with her like that.

 

not that i want to say that i am racist (even though i secretly am) BUT, that darker skinned person really too much hor. you choose to make purchase online, yet when you’re being sent notice to pay, you don’t want to reply. what an asshole. think you dark then you big ah. angry. if by tomorrow noon i still don’t receive or hear any updates, i’m just cancelling and relisting it. idiot.

 

on overall. i’m having a good day. WITH EVEN MORE THINGS IN MIND TO BUY. i have a very poisonous addiction, i tell you. TSKKKKKK.

 

 

//edit. i forgot how much i like this photo. hahahaha.

the observant eye.

in case you haven’t noticed, i’ve now got live twitter updates.  that is, when i update my tweets. i like how mobility just gets people connected. IF ONLY MY PHONE WASN’T SOME PIECE OF SHIT. NO THANKS TO HTC. (i miss my htc diamond many many.)

caught “diary of a sex addict” with yl while ago. i must say, that is one thought-provoking movie. especially the part about “marriage or prostitution”; how the whole idea kind of lumps it up together because the men eventually control. which to a certain extent is rather true. the only thing is how val can fuck around without the fear of stds. that’s just amazing. doing the movie alone, i wonder how the effects are being created, i mean, REALLY?! you can just do that in front of crew and and lights and cameras? i’ve got to hand it to you.

 

i’d consider today a rather good day. IF ONLY THERE WASN’T THE STRESS OF RESULTS. in about 2 and a half days. ): OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

 

on another note, ‘10 diaries are coming soon! (: time for happy hunt.

tick tock.

alright. i guess i feel settled enough to start worrying about the release of results. anxiousness is really something i’m not good at handling. which is a really bad thing. ): as much as i hope it comes quickly so that i can look forward to the new semester, but hey. oh man. what if. i fail any of the papers at all?! wouldn’t that just be depressing to the core of my bones. (as much as it is, i am very much not prepared for failing exams. have never been, and doubt will ever be.) somehow, i have been blessed in some godlike way to be protected enough from going through the failure, i have this high sense of the sixth that this semester isn’t going to be the same. could this be a coupling of pms plus anxiety, or maybe because i am too free that i have so much time to think of all this 有的没的.

sighs.

i really hope all things go well. so that i can get over the last semester with some comfort. last being if i pass the next semester as well. OH MAN. why do i have so little faith in my duration as a student at uol. it must really be THAT bad.

sad.

 

anyway. i miss hk already. it was a time when i was out of connection with the internet. and spent my time walking and seeing the natural out in the open. suffering under the immense heat, and bargaining canto-阿嫂s. and eating heavenly pieces of food. i realise how it is. bangkok is my favourite place to bargain with thai retailers and eat sour/spicy food. hk is my favourite place to figure what retailers are talking about and eat FAT/OILY FOOD. fat/oily basically result in the same thing, but considerably, i walk/perspire more in hk than bkk. summer’s that bad. =/

I WANT. TO. GO. TO. LANGKAWI. again. i miss that little island with only one traffic light. and i miss that big gigantic eagle statue in the middle of the beach. and i miss the call of the geckos outside of the resort room. the only thing i don’t miss there is the – food. (a pork-less diet is really very torturous for me somehow.)

on another note, leighton meester somehow can sing pop. wonder if she can dance. hmmmm.

the lack of shopping in hk has turned the desire of shopping at a hyper. but considering the number of things that i actually have bought. i should stop buying. but, i cannot help myself.

 

 

why oh why. anxiety really is very bad for me.

 

oh please. let it all be good. so i don’t have to tear/beat myself up over whatever that’s going to happen next.

 

oh, and you know what i really really miss. the days of going out and just walking on ends with yl. not bothering to even go out seems to become an attitude nowadays.

 

POKPOK. i want to be a tourist in singapore! can we please please please go to the zoo, underwater world (i may be able to get free tickets), bird park, botanic gardens! i took some guide to singapore book at the airport, and it made this money sucking place seem interesting.